Alchemy and Intricacy; A Course About the Delicate Business of Being Human
A twelve week online Course
This course is a collection of tools, techniques, and teachings gathered over the last twenty years of relentless study. This work is designed to give us a clear map of the vital aliveness in us that we have lost contact with. We will study our own humanity, and learn ways to get back to the wholeness that is our birthright, so that we can fully show up for our lives, and to give the world back the gift of our full collaboration.
Twenty years ago I was lost. Lost and stuck. I had to go, but I didn’t even know where. I wanted to believe that life was something more than the measly portion I had been served up until then, but I had nothing more than a vague sense of nostalgia, a yearning.
I wanted to believe in magic, I wanted to live in awe. I wanted mystery. I wanted to kick my life over and live in the mossy brambles of its underbelly. I wanted meaning. I was drawn and quartered between the opposing poles of wanting to melt into wonder, and wanting to understand everything.
And I didn’t want what I had. That is an important piece, that what I had seen, what I had experienced until then, was not it. Happiness and fullness felt out of my reach.
So, I packed my bags, sold my things, extracted myself from my life, and went in search of meaning. I spent the next number of years losing and finding it. Feasting on Southern Asia’s sprawling banquet of spirituality, tried everything I could get my paws on, and slowly, steadily dug my life out of its hole.
What I discovered in these years of sitting in meditation, bending into yoga poses and trying every kind of possible practice placed before me, was that the sexual energy is key. That we can find, in this source of life, all of life's mystery, power, ecstasy, and pain. That the study of this energy is the study of life. That knowing this current is knowing ourselves.
And that only when we know ourselves can we hope to be able to meet another. By meet, I don't mean just bump into. I mean to meet; to see and be seen.
Sex without a meeting brings us only frustration and fleeting pleasure, a meeting is only possible when you can lay yourself bare to the other. You can only lay bare when you have seen and known all of the fragments of yourself, gathered them unapologetically and stated, “Look at this beautiful mess, look at this wild magic!” And you consider that magic to be the most precious of gifts, rather than a burden.
And that is the core of this work; that there is no sense in accruing tools and techniques to make you a better lover, better communicator, or better relator in general, until you can really relax into the person you are.
Until you have known the all the notes on the scale that bridges your sacredness to your profanity, the fullness of your grief and awe, your bird-bone vulnerability and your utmost power, you will not really let anyone close to your heart. As long as you keep secrets from yourself, the intimacy you seek will not be found.
For the last decade I’ve been running intensive courses; combative, deep, primal spaces where we can let go what’s ready to get gone, and call in what’s ready to land. I believe that working in a group calls us into action and allows for the co-regulation hardwired in all mammals. We heal in packs. We thrive in packs. All those oars in the water, bringing us toward a common, and utterly individual place inside of ourselves. This work is meant to be done together. This course is meant to divide our waters; to give us the opportunity to be in our lives, and at the same time in deep inquiry. It is the opposite of the intensive work, it's a slow cooker, allowing us time to soften into the work, time to let the work happen to us. And we will start where everything starts; with sex. This intricate force within us, that has more to do with our inherent power than with any interlocking of bodies; it is the alchemical element with which we can regain sovereignty over ourselves and regain our wholeness.
About Laura
Laura Carrotti is a seeker of meaning. She's spent the last two decades studying with masters and fools all throughout India, Thailand, and South America. The core of Laura’s teaching, and her mission, is to bring people back into their totality, and to help them re-evaluate the relationship they have with their sexuality. Her work blends self-inquiry, dynamic forms of meditation, breath, yoga, and good old honesty. Her specialty is in unraveling the war we are all in with ourselves.
Laura has been leading Tantra groups in Europe, Asia, South America and the U.S. for over a decade and teaching Yoga philosophy and practice for almost two. She is also a trauma informed, Somatic Experiencing practitioner.
And she swears an awful lot, but she’s great fun.
Investment
I believe in a collaborative economy. I understand that the assigned value of this course holds a very different financial impact for each of you. I work with people in different parts of the world, whose currency holds more or less weight, and with very varied financial realities. In an effort to encourage a different way of contributing I will let each of you choose your price tier, there is no proof needed, just choose whichever one feels best for you. The higher price brackets will both allow this work to flourish and continue as well as to fund scholarships and discounts for those who need them. It’s the Economic Circle of Life!
There are also Scholarships available for BIPOC (Black, Indigenous and People of Color) Folks, if that's you, just reach out. The Regular Contribution is $897. And for those who can and feel the call we have a Collaborator Contribution of $1097, which will help keep those Scholarships and Discounts running.
You will walk out of this experience with your eyes open and toolbox full…what you will get
25 pre-recorded lessons which systematically bring us into the depths of the intricate workings of our systems. Each week new lessons will be made available for you to watch in your own time.
19 Practice sessions to accompany the lessons. Each theory and concept will be accompanied with a practice; movement, breath, yoga, or meditation designed to allow the information to transform into understanding, and to create a biofeedback loop with the body. These practices will be a tool we can use for the rest of our lives.
Guided self-study. Each lesson will come with an assignment to be done to get very clear where we can find this within our own lives. This is not a theoretical work, you will get in there and apply it!
Weekly live experiential sessions. We will meet live as a group to workshop the themes we opened during the week. Questions will be answered by Laura, and we will move through and integrate the teachings.
Live guest classes. Once a module we’ll have the opportunity to have a class with another teacher, one who works in a similar, yet totally different way. From Tai chi, to dance, to theater, to meditation, these other views will give us a fuller, richer experience.
Vibrant community. Inside the platform (no need to go to facebook or another third party) we’ll have a community space where we can share, ask questions, and connect. There will be community assignments, and an invitation to create Listening partnerships and Accountability Pods, to help us stay on track and to build connection, which help us understand that we are not alone in this work.
Wondering if this is a good fit for you?
Who this course is for
Seekers. Those poised on the brink of a transformation. Those stuck in the mire. Those who want beauty and wonder and who doubt that it exists. Those who want to come alive. Those who are homesick for a place they have never been. Those who are missing community. Those who are missing themselves.
Who this course isn’t for
Someone who doesn’t have any problems, or fine-tuning that needs to be done right now. Those who don't have two hours a week to dedicate to this work at this time. Those who don't feel emotionally in a space to dig right now. Those who might be triggered by the idea of using binary terms like masculine and feminine.
If you are thinking of joining us, the waiting list is open, reach out and you’ll be the first to hear about all the dates and details. We’re here if you have questions!